The pain feels like someone is ripping you apart from the inside with their bare hands and the blood loss phenomenal. There were times when I would go crazy and feel psychotic from the pain. I would find myself pulling out my hair and clenching my fists so tightly that my nails would cut into my palms making me bleed. I would vomit and pass out from the pain. I would hug boiling hot water bottles scalding my skin to help alleviate the pain. I would find myself holding my breath for long periods of time. I would cry and sob as I prayed for relief even if it was only for a moment.