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Monday, May 9, 2011
I feel done. Like I've got nothing left. I am just not happy and I'm not sure how to be happy. I don't know why I am not happy. I have a perfect little girl (who actually is screaming her head off right now) who makes me smile and laugh. I'm not upset with her at all. I don't know what my deal is. I just know something isn't right. Before anyone suggests it I do NOT want to take depression medication. I just don't. I want to be happy on my own. The arguments for it is pretty much tough - you need to be in a good state of mind for your daughter. My argument is: I'm not in a bad state of mind for my daughter. I love my daughter its the loving myself I have a problem with. I have an idea of what I want to do but still not sure if it's something I am able to do. I just feel lost right now.