My father is really sick. He's dying. I'm headed to TN in the morning to see him. His wife Dee is trying to have hope "Well my plan is to bring him home... but it's not looking good. He's not looking good. He's not getting better. He looks so bad Nick." I'm not close to my father. I'm mad at him for not being close to me when I've given him chance after chance. I'm sad because I don't want him to die. No matter what he is still my father, even if I don't know him as well as I want to. I'm angry and anxious. I have so many feelings all at once and I don't even know how to feel it or express it. I know that if I don't go to see him I will regret it. I just don't know how to handle it all. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers.