Thursday, July 28, 2011
Flash forward to today, Thursday (as in, "next thursday"). I go in to talk to Dr. Endo and he asks if I want to try Lupron. No. I do not (and by the way I just found out Lupron is technically a chemo medication. Yeah, thank you anyway). He said okay surgery. Well you probably don't know this but I'm leaving. I must have made a face because he says 'ah you did know' I said yeah I heard. What I was thinking was don't you think YOU should have been the one to inform me? Don't you think I should have known before your very last day at the clinic? HUH?! HUH?!?!?! In my head this man was in BIG trouble! He continued with he obviously wouldn't be doing the surgery but one of three surgeons in town that he was signing on to work at the hospital would be doing it. He likes all three but the main one he even plays golf with (because his golfing skills should indicate how well he does in surgery - men *sigh*). Dr. Endo said that he'd let his scheduling person call me for a pre-op appointment then from there I'd pick a day for surgery. They would call me by next week. I left the appointment by telling him good luck with his new office and thank you for all that he has done. He really is a nice guy and not a guy I can yell at so I kept the yelling in my head.
When we, did I mention my mother was with me? (I love her), got to my car my mom asked me what I thought. I told her I was conflicted. She thought I would be ecstatic because I had gotten what I wanted, surgery. My dilemma was I had made this appointment with people from the other hospital which is tomorrow. Do I still go? If I go do I tell them that I may have a surgery with the people at the teaching hospital? Do I tell them I'm definitely having surgery with the teaching hospital then I'm coming there? Who are these doctors? I don't know them? Are they any good? Do they know what they are doing? Will they take on patients or are they just doing surgery then sending me on my way? If they are taking on patients do I just dump the people from the Other hospital? So many questions swimming around my head. I had no idea what to think. Yes I am relieved I am getting a surgery but then what? If I go to the Other Hospital for Endo, everything is with the Teaching Hospital. It's just all complicated. So instead of pondering it I just came to work. Where I am now, taking a break and writing this.
Before I started writing this I called back Dr. Endo's office and asked them for the names of the doctors who might be preforming the surgery (all three, one of three, something) so I could look them up and find out information about them. I left a message and asked for Mrs. Secretary (yeah I know, lame) to call me back. Half way through writing this she called me back and you won't believe what she said. The three doctors are the three doctors from the practice I called. Apparently they are the ones picking up the slack from Dr. Endo's leave. What a relief! Now I don't have to pick between the two because they are two in the same! A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now I can go in tomorrow meet my new doctors/surgeons without worries (well, without those worries).
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Being as it’s Haleigh’s half birthday today, I figured I’d do an update on her. My plan was to look on whattoexpect.com for a milestone list because I know the book has one, however the website does not. I did however find one, thanks to another mommy friend of mine http://www.littletinylove.blogspot.com, by American Academy of Pediatrics. It’s not a monthly list though it’s a 0-3, 4-7, 8-12 month list. I suppose it will work.
At 4-7 months you baby should…
Roll boy ways - CHECK!
Sits with and without support of hands - Not without support yet
Supports while weight on legs - ‘eh some times
Reaches with one hand - CHECK!
Transfers object from hand to hand - just TRY to take away her toy, she will play keep away with you
Uses raking grasp - got to get that paci!
Enjoys social play - Does she ever
Interested in mirror images - has been since she was born
Responds to expressions of emotion - CHECK!
Appears joyful often - She is one big ball of happiness
Finds partially hidden objects - Not on purpose
Explores with hands and mouth - Everything goes to the mouth to be licked
Struggles to get objects that are out of reach - no struggling, she’ll roll her way to them
So what did you all get out of this? That she is a genius? Yeah me too.
Let me walk you through a regular day for us. Haleigh gets woken up by daddy (sometimes the other way around) anywhere between 7-8 in the morning. Her Daddy changes her, feeds her then lays her down with me who is most likely still sleeping. I get up then have breakfast and get ready to go to work. I usually go to work around 9am. I work at a local consignment store so luckily it is bring your daughter to work day every day for us. We get there set up the store then I normally lay Haleigh down in the crib that I have behind the desk and she goes to sleep. Around 10-11ish Haleigh wakes back up and wants to play a little while. Not for long though, maybe 10-15 minutes of play time then she gets cranky and wants to go back to sleep. I change
our dinner. Once we’re done we sit her in her bumbo (we don’t have a high chair yet) and feed her dinner. After dinner she gets a kiss goodnight from mommy and her and daddy go upstairs for her bedtime routine. Bedtime routine consists of changing the diaper, being swaddled, and a bottle. After she’s done with her bottle, asleep or not, she goes in to her bed and goes to sleep. Sometimes she wakes up and crys 45 minutes to an hour later but all she needs to see is one of our faces (usually her daddy) and she goes right back to sleep.
I love her. I don’t think I could ever possibly say enough times that I love her for you all to grasp the love I have in my heart for her. It is like I grew a whole nother heart just for her stinkin’ cute face. Right now it’s nearing bedtime.. She’s laying next to me chewing on some of her toys but I can see she’s getting sleepy. Time to call her daddy in here to put her to bed.
I can’t even believe that a year and 10 days ago I was telling most of my family and friends that we were pregnant and 6 months ago today I had the most perfect little girl ever. 6 months ago today I was crying and thanking God for believing in me and giving me a chance to be a great mom. 6 months ago I was sitting on my bed looking over and the two loves of my life sleeping soundly. 6 months ago today I never realized that I could love her anymore then I did the day she was born…but I was wrong, my love for her grows every second of every day.